Recently, I’ve been wanting to go to a body of Believers with women who cover their heads. I didn’t know—and still don’t exactly know—if this desire was only a selfish one or a good one. I mean, it could be just because I wanted to be around people who weren’t going to challenge me. Or it could be because of different reasons… Well, whatever happens, I’ve decided that I want to go to this Messianic congregation that is really close to where I live, and I hope to go to it on this next Saturday. There was apparently a Wednesday women’s meeting, but I’ve just discovered that I’m going to be doing something pretty much at the same time. It’s kind of funny! I was hoping to go to the Wednesday thing so that I might be able to blend in with the scenery—but no! I don’t think God really wants me disappearing anytime soon! It’s funny how He works sometimes! I mean, I’m thinking that I don’t even know if this is going to be any good, and their He goes, making it that much harder to get out of going. (I’ll just mention here that this church is a rather small church, and last time I went—and went with four members of my family—we stuck out like a sore thumb!)
But I’m saying all this, and it’s making me sound like I don’t want to go! But I really do want to go! I want to see other women who cover (if there are any). I want to talk to other Messianic Christens about their beliefs. I want to get back to the roots of the things I believe in. I want to be able to say YHWH’s Name in Hebrew without being looked at weird. I don’t mind all of these things so much—but I want to get to somewhere sometimes where it’s normal to do all these things.
I’ll go to the service on Saturday and see how it goes. I’d like to ask for some prayer about this whole thing. I don’t know if it’s normal for people on blogs to ask for prayer, but it’s normal for Christens to do that. I need the Lord’s wisdom, and I need to have the strength to actually go there, and I thank you for your prayers.
Shalom
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